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So...I got tickled ☺️😅
And omg it was SO MUCH FUN 😍 If you're anything like I was before 2 days ago, the idea of actually having a session is maybe a little terrifying. But if you dream about tickling/being tickled by somebody IRL this is your sign to take that leap and go do it! It's so fulfilling and with the right person you will have such a good time ❤
I might do another post breaking down precisely where I'm ticklish/what tickles the most 🤭 (edit: linked here) but for now, here's some thoughts I have on the session, and tickling in general:
It makes such a difference to be fully comfortable and friendly with your session partner, BOTH AS A LEE AND A LER. I got pretty lucky in this regard, as I hadn't actually met my partner in person until that day, but he walked me back from the station and he was super kind and funny 😅 and really considerate, too, of not pushing me into anything I was uncomfortable with. Obviously I was still super nervous about being tickled but 5 seconds in and all those nerves were gone 😊 I didn't feel awkward making dumb noises and giggling like crazy in front of him, nor embarrassed to tickle him back or tease him about his sweet spots. If I ever have a session with somebody new to tickling, I hope I can make them as comfortable as he made me.
Following on from that...I didn't hate being tickled by a guy! Actually it was really fun, especially because of the above point, but I was really worried I'd find it awkward or just wouldn't enjoy it. But we both had a great time ☺️ I don't really feel like it influenced my sexuality, as we didn't exactly get very intimate (that'd be quite a lot for a first session) but 10/10 would tickle/get tickled by a guy again.
Getting tickled like that...made me feel quite a bit more positive about myself and my body 😅 I'm not exactly a 10, but watching a ler delight in tickling me until I was red-faced and giggling, feeling him trace my body and find the spots that make me go wide-eyed, was actually very securing. Similarly, tickling him right back made me feel a lot more comfortable about my reactions and laughter too. Might be cringe, but I left the session feeling pretty great 😁
Holy hell I am so much more of a ler now 😁 While I'd enjoyed the idea of tickling a lee before that day, it was more from an angle of giving pleasure to my lee, knowing how enjoyable being tickled half to death is. But this time? I felt good tickling my partner because I was actually loving it myself 😁 it's so much fun to have that power over somebody so ticklish, to gentle graze the sweet spots that make them scream, to explore every inch of soft, smooth skin and tease them about how giggly they're getting. Man I can't wait to get my hands on a willing lee again 😁
On the flipside...eeeek I'm so ticklish 😆 Thankfully there was never a time I had to safeword (that shouldn't be the aim of a session unless agreed imo) but it did NOT take much to turn me into a mess of giggles 🤭😅 I knew I was ticklish but scrolling through tumblr and seeing tickling posts is so much worse now I can imagine those sensations on my body. Apparently I was much more ticklish than my ler was expecting too AND IF THAT'S NOT FLUSTERING I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS
Tickling is a WORKOUT and a half 😆😅 at least if you're a squirmer like me, and probably even without it. After the session my tummy ached so much. It was a good ache and I had a huge smile on my face, but I was pretty drained. A good friend recommended I stretch beforehand and I'd highly recommend it.
#tickling#tickling community#it's been 2 days and I already wanna go backkkk#really hope I can organise a session with him again sometime#because I doubt everyone is that nice#but he seemed to have a really good time too#ughhhh I wanna tickle him and/or get tickled again#preferably both
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PUTTING UP MY FIRST EXHIBIT EVER RN CURATED ENTIRELY BY ME !!!!!!!!!!! RAHHHH 😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈😈
IT’S OPEN 2 THE PUBLIC NEXT WEEK ‼️‼️‼️
#also hehehehe i have another exhibit going up in a different room that’s opening in the summer !!!! RAHJSNSNAJAKAK#i used 2 pray 4 times like these#straight up bad bitching it rn#now everyone pray that everyone is super niceys to me and love love LOVES what i’ve done w the place or else …. 🔫#biggest nightmare is my boss being like ‘oh no…. this isn’t what we wanted at all….. i fear you’ve missed the mark’#like i will throw up on her very nice loafers :/#<- it’s because my biggest fear is being bad at the things i love the most#does that make sense? like this is all i am. i’ve dedicated my entire studies and life to this … if im bad at it …. i can’t be bad it …yk?#but i think its swag idc! now is not the time for self doubt !!!!!! 🙂↔️🙂↔️#nat rambles
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So I watched A Silent Voice with some but minor knowledge of the story going in. And right at the beginning when Shoko's bullying started I had the nagging worry that while Ishida would be redeemed they'd leave Ueno and Kawai as one-dimensional bullies. Painting the girls as the "real villains" while the male protagonist got to have depth. Anyway I just finished the movie and I would like to formally apologize to Oima Yoshitoki and Yoshida Reiko I should never have doubted you.
#i was unfamiliar with your game madams. i hope you can forgive me#never seen a film with a male mc become SO dedicated to complex relationships between its flawed female side characters#a silent voice#Ishida shoya#ueno naoka#kawai miki#the scene where yaeko slapped naoka was the peak of the movie to me#seems like she needed it too she'd spent the whole film up to this point basically BEGGING shoko to punch her#but shoko's too nice and it bothers her sooooo much. she's like HATE ME. and shoko's like 'i don't' and she's like WHY NOT???? FIX THAT#naola and miki are very interesting parallels because miki NEEDS to be liked by everyone and naoka wants so badly to be disliked instead.#which leads to both of them being pretty shitty but in essentially opposite ways IT'S GREAT#koe no katachi#i have no doubt that the fandom is still going to be INCREDIBLY weird about both of these girls but what's new#oh a flawed woman exists in a media property? yeah it's a real mystery what the internet's gonna say about that lmao
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I am here, once again, with my Ao No Flag propaganda
These two specific panels of Toma were the thing that made me think over a year ago “Man. I want to be like that too” as in KAITO drawing expression because—
The subtle shift of emotion, it’s present all throughout the manga, but this is what sold it for me. For no particular reason, it’s not even the best example, it was just what sealed the deal to me
#it’s the way his eyes open slightly in surprise when Seiya tells him that his friends refused to give an explanation when asked about#what happened in what I think is a way of them showing they care about Toma#and that surprises Toma since I believe he might have been doubtful his friends would forgive him after that#which man. idk maybe it’s because it hit home in some other things. it’s so good#Kaito handles the way the characters express themselves so good I’m always in awe anytime I reread any volume#it’s just. they feel so real in their flaws and mistakes and how they take it. for example our dear protagonist#man he is a wreck. but it’s understandable since he is going through a stage in life where he is still understanding himself!#and KAITO depicts it so nicely and lets him be awful. and let’s everyone be it too. they fuck up yes! but it’s not the end of the world#and he shows that too. how it’s okay to make mistakes but you have to owe them and grow from them not get stuck in them#it’s the little me inside of myself that was making me weep I believe#Ao no flag#blue flag#toma mita#yeah this is about volume 7 too#well i dont know it’s the way Seiya is older sibling anguish that hit me with a bat personally because 🤝. same.#and just. AAAAGGHHHH I’m going insane
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#NOT TO BE NSFT ON MAIN#But I'm going through it... and by it I mean well... the horn knee#but like. lots of Thoughs about- HFH how Valentin is probably the first trans guy for Mitch#not that its rare by 2077 but because I HC him as demisexual#his first time was late-ish compared to his friends - he didnt had a lot of lovers - then there was Scorpion#who was more of a brother than a boyfriend but I DO HC THAT THEY ROLLED IN THE HAY Alright#But back to the thingy-- He's probably not experienced when it comes to Well Tdicks right#Mitch start to develop feelings for Val too the whole vets group start to notice it hardcore#cause these two gonkasses arent exactly subtle - they're just blind#and so one night while the vets are chillin drinkin the usual#subject comes up like eyy hows it going with V you gonna rizz him up or what#Mitch going PFFF idk what yall talkin about but he's red and suddenly don't know what to do with his hands#conversation goes and he's all like awkward cause Well Duh#Boys take showers together so everyone knows Val isnt Cis- there's others trans folks in the camp too its nothing unusual just an info#and get this... what if. its Butch Grease Queen Carol who gives him tips on how to get his boy all rilled up#while drunk ofc - Mitch wishin he could disapear from the discussion cause it's just too much but lowkey taking notes HKGJDKZKG#while some other vet goes on about how good it feels in there tm and all-- YNOW WARM N WET AND ALL#Mitch just nervously laugh and thanks them for the advices tm even if nothing will ever happen and just change the subject#he def jerk off in his tent tho cause he can't keep the vision out mH. hhhHHFHHF 👁👁#and he'd be like damn here I go doin it over a friend again and feels guilty next time he sees Val#(val def does it too in his northern appartment#idk where im going with this don't mind me JHGJ#sex is such an insignificant part of their love - its present and they explore all type of stuff together#but its not something that would ever be source of problem or doubts if that makes any sense#while simultaneously being important - cause Mitch was Val first time - and in a way Val was Mitchs first too#and his boy sure does feel nice /)UwU(\ weeeee#tbd
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it would feel so nice to work towards a career that has meaningful impact and makes millions of people happy
#i follow this person cleo abrams on youtube and she's always talking so excitedly about scientists#and their amazing discoveries cool facts and she's so excited and starry eyed and hopeful#she genuinely just wants to educate people and has so much hope that we can make the world a better place#also like idk maybe unrelated but i saw the mv of new romantics and just. wow#say what you will about her but there's no doubt she's made an insane number of people happy SO HAPPY that they're crying#so many tours#idk i want#i wish my life was bigger#i feel so isolated and always just focusing on myself my career my health my enjoyment#what about everything everyone else#i keep trying to be completely okay with being alone i keep telling myself to not need anyone and be 100% independent#find happiness within hobbies interests#but it feels like a losing battle#i don't know i just. miss everyone 😭😭😭😭#but it hurts too much tbh always more sad than happy always more crying than laughing#i miss my bestfriend i don't know what i did wrong but she won't pick up my call she keeps saying she's busy#i don't want to be clingy because she hates that shit i don't want to drive her away but she's my only friend#i miss my fucking mom she doesn't care if i live or die obviously but i miss just having her presence in the house#and even tho my sister is here she's never fully present always on her laptop working#i wouldn't really say i miss my dad but wow it's been so long since mom and dad stayed together at home it was almost#always miserable but sometimes at the lunch table it was nice#i don't know everything and everyone is moving and changing so fast and i can't breathe under it and it's already september#but this entire year felt like a blur it's like everyone who left took a chunk of my heart with them#and i should be happy because im so close to the exam which will get me out of this house finally be financially independent#like i wanted since i was 11 i could finally start my life#but it all feels so. i don't know the whole future seems black like i can't imagine life past november 2025#how do you imagine happiness if you've never been happy?#and all these feelings are making it so hard to study and studying is so fucking important because if i don't ill be stuck here forever#and i don't want to go thru attempts fail and pass again atleast back then i had a reason first heartbreak‚ not getting to go to college#but what now why now i don't even understand i know objectively i do not have it that bad it's literally better even if i compare to my own
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i think i’m addicted to complimenting people
#it’s just so nice to see other people light up when you say something positive about them#like homie you’re a cool human and i want to recognize that#i’m so sorry if anyone else has made you doubt that but i promise i will never be the person to ever aid in that doubt#i love telling people positive and complimentary things about them#the whole world is so negative and awful and i refuse to contribute to that#now on the other hand ….#do people compliment me and say nice things to me ….#FUCKING NO#i’m always craving being loved and accepted and … idk am i so awful ???#i rarely get compliments or positive engagement with other human beings#i compliment and uplift because i fucking mean it !!#although it does make me sad that i’m not good enough to be complimented and uplifted#i’m just a fat loser for real#obviously these tags aren’t true for EVERYONE#but like for the …. 3? people total; this post ain’t about you
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hiii i want you to know i just consumed the entire fic and all your art so far and im obsessed. any chance you're willing to feed me a few crumbs :3
hiii anon i also want you to know that this was the final pushing point that helped me push through finishing the next chapter <3/gen/pos
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#it is what it is update#it is what it is art#GENUINELY#ive been like. going through so many blocks and doubts about whether my work is like. actually good or everyone is being nice#asks + comments + tags are always saved in my phone for me to look at and remind myself "hey!! people actually like this !!! maybe its okay#like this one <3#you guys are so kind and supportive and i thank you so much for it#its. hard for me to continue a piece because i very very easily get overwhelmingly negative about it so this. this genuinely helps so much#if you've read my fic#scrolled through my art#thank you#thank you so much <3#hope you guys are well!!#no idea how my updating schedule will be. ill. ill try#fnaf dca reader insert#y/n#fnaf moon#fnaf dca#WAHHH POSTED THE WRONG VERSION OF THE DRAWING
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it is the actual finals and I am still getting people complaining about things not being "technically shonen" like buddy ace attorney would not have made it all the way to the tournament finals if I gave a shit about that
#not polls#reminding everyone once again of the m/f sonic ship that was in this poll#strict definitions are for losers we stay silly#because that poll has like a thousand notes and is floating around everywhere#I doubt the people who would complain at me in the notes would see this post#but I just think it's very annoying and wanted to share with the class#does not help your blorbos at all in fact it makes me want to put them in progressively more unfair situations#just for future reference#99% of you are so very nice and lovely and I would love it if the 1% who are dicks in my notes would shut up so your blorbos can be happy
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You!!! Make this community a better place!!! Thank you for grazing in the Steddie nation!!
#you ever watch a documentary on autism in ‘women and girls’ and SO MUCH of it hits home and makes sense but not all of it 100% so doubt#yourself even though over 75% fits when you’ve been thinking this might be The Right Fit but don’t have a formal diagnosis and probably#will never get one#BUT THEN get really upset because it’s in ‘women and girls’ and you don’t want to be either of those and it hurts in a way you can’t explan#and then worry you are over analysing everything and making things out to be more than they are#idk idk just thoughts to vent out I don’t need a reply so please don’t feel obligated or anything#I mean talking abt it is always interesting but I’m not expecting anything#as all of my posts are!! never an obligation! ever!!!#idk man just thinking out loud and tag talking is my way becaude a full text post is too Much#I just hope everyone is doing okay???? AND!!! I hope you are enjoying yourselves???#in some way!!#because I’ve come back and seeing the creativity and joy and community here js so lovely#I wish I had the time to reblog everybody’s work and exclaim the details and feeling of it all#because regardless of fic shit post art edit gifs it’s all INCREDIBLE. it brings so much emotion to so many and you deserve the recognition#and credit for it because yes you do it for yourself but the feedback is always nice. always.#I just want people to be encouraged to create idk you are all so wonderful and I need you to know that#OKAY I’m done back to Normal reblogs and ask answering and whatever else I can provide#sorry!!!
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I know it's wrong and bad to say this, but sometimes I really hate when my friends have other friends. (specifically when I can't also be friends with those friends) because every time I want someone to hang out with or talk to, the only couple friends I have are always busy with their other friends. when I want to plan something with them, they will always choose the other friends over me. they will cancel plans *with* me as soon as other friends ask, but won't cancel plans *for* me when i ask. they will use up their social spoons on other friends and leave none for me. always putting things with me off or simply not responding at all.
i'm always told by random people when I say I want mkre friends "it's better to have a couple great friends than many aquantances" or something like that. but honestly it sucks because you can't rely on 1-2 people to always be there for you every day or every week when you want or need someone. if you keep asking, you're seen as annoying and clingy and they will ignore you eventually (or worse)
it's annoying that they get to fill their social needs at all times, but I never get to. because i'm never the one that gets to go first in the social queue. and when it gets to my turn, it refreshes and i'm pushed to the back again.
the only solution I can ever think of is being friends with my friends' friends too....but for some reason!!!!!! that never works out!!!! (if my friends will even share their friends with me to begin with)
#and dont even get me started on when i share my friends with each other and they choose each other over me and kick me out lmao#WHY ARE FRIENDS SO HARD#why am i just a little creature that requires certain amounts/types of social interaction that never gets met#and no one wants to do anything about it. and im forced to sit here feeling bad about it because i cant fix it either fbbdbdfghhdhjrhfdj#this whole friend and human interaction and bonding and companionship bullshit is going to be lifelong issue and im not here for it#NO ADVICE IM GIVEN WORKS. IM TIRED OF ONE SIDED BULLSHIT WHERE ONLY I TRY. HUMANS ARE ANNOYING#im like a non human creature that wears human skin and everyone except me knows and they dont want me and i domt know why#i also dont have the energy to do the whole new friends song and dance where you small talk to get to know each other#and share your life stories. i rather just hang out and become friends through enjoyment of mutual enjoyed activity????#or something like that idk#i tried so hard to be friendly to friends' friend last weekend when we all hung out so i can be adopted into their friend group but#they didnt even tell me it was nice meeting me and hanging out and didnt even say bye to me. only to my friends#and i was too sad about that to say it to them instead as they walked away. theyre way more social and good at words#and i was overwhelmed and struggling to speak so i was waiting for the queue to say those things or something#i expected it like an idiot loser becuase i thought i did a good job being a cute gremlin that fits into the group that seems to have#other goofy gremlins like me. i thought maybe they can be “my people” or something. but then they turned around and left#after telling my friends bye. and didnt acknowledge me. and i juat kept smiling and turned around and walked away too#PRETENDING IT WAS FINE. BUT IT FELT BAD. BECAUSE I FAILED TO MAKE A FRIEND WHEN I THOUGHT I DID GOOD WITH THEM FOR ONCE#so “being confident/believing in yourself” like im told to do DIDNT WORK AND IT FELT WORSE THAN DOUBTING MYSELF. YOU LIARS. ugh fhdhdhfhjssk#WHAT DO. WHY LEE BAD AT THIS. WHY IT FEEL BAD. WHY NOT JUST ACCEPT BEING ALONE 99% OF TIME AND GIVE UP. WOULD BE EASIER#lee rants#autism things#i know its rude to invite yourself into a friend group but what if i try anyway 🤪✌️
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-->And then – party time! Smiler’s guests began arriving, starting with Cameron Fletcher and Myra Basu – I put them in Smiler’s group and had them follow them upstairs to keep them out of the way while Victor continued his clean-up. A clean-up made a little more difficult by the next guests to arrive – Brian Pimental (aka the local NAP inspector) was no issue, but Cletus ForgotHisLastName decided to kick over the trash can outside the house before I could get him into the group and direct him upstairs to start dancing to the radio! Hmph! Well, Victor got rummaging as I wrangled the guests –
-->But oh, what was this? A notification that Alice had gotten to Fitness Level 8 on her jog with Shadow, thus completing an aspirational milestone (in fact, straight-up completing the ASPIRATION – Alice now has the “Professorial” trait from Renaissance Sim and can write her own skill books!) and thus her New Year’s Resolution! :D That brought the trio as a whole to two out of three completed! Granted, I didn’t manage to get a shot of Alice actually celebrating completing her resolution because her jog with Shadow was being glitchy (Shadow was doing that thing again where dogs just run ahead for miles and miles in a straight line heedless of obstacles, and Alice kept switching outfits because the game WANTED to put her in her “White Rabbit” party outfit, but she wasn’t technically AT the party, she was in the middle of a jog, so she eventually ended up in just her regular blue Alice dress once I managed to cancel the jog), but I did get a shot of her looking pretty smug in her White Rabbit dress jogging along with Shadow, so I think that’ll do. XD
-->Okay, so Victor and Alice were all set with their New Year’s resolutions – that just left Smiler’s to complete, and that meant throwing a good party! I managed to get Smiler and all their guests up in the party barn area, dancing to the radio, then had Smiler unleash their Party Time party-bot for some extra party vibes. :D They then tried chatting with Cameron (who was not interested in hearing about lycanthropy, it seems) while Victor, done rummaging through the trash, reset the trash can and headed up to the barn to get a chocolate cupcake from Party Time, while Alice and Shadow arrived home, and Alice changed into one of her other party dresses to join the fun.
Leaving her standing in a pile of discarded clothes. Whoops – looks like the family left the laundry for a little too long! XD I resolved not to think about it for the time being and sent her to go join the dancing as Smiler let off a burst of happiness to ensure all their guests were in good moods (like YOU, Cletus) –
-->And then Myra and Cameron wandered off, and local townie Roxanne (who the game has decided is the Valicer farmhouse’s “neighbor”) showed up saying she’d brought a present! Curious, I had Smiler go over to invite her in (bringing some of their guests with them) – things were made a little more complicated by the appearance of specters at the front door, which seemed to temporarily break the whole “handing over the gift” interaction, but she eventually gave Smiler her present – an apple! Which, okay, we have plenty of those, but it’s the thought that counts. XD Smiler accepted it with good grace, and the two became good friends, aww. I was ready to have Smiler chat her up in hopes of getting some plasma off her too –
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#seriously Cletus what the hell#I invited you because I thought Smiler missed hanging out with you in college#now I'm starting to doubt that#damn trash can kickers#on the other hand Alice jogging along in her Late But Lucky outfit is very amusing to me#and honestly very appropriate given it's an outfit based on Rabbit#he'd appreciate her going for a nice run in it I think!#and I just realized that Brian is in fact wearing some of the pants I downloaded#the one from the 'pride flag colors' set#so that's cool :)#even if they don't match his top at ALL#townie fashion everyone XD#and yeah I was a little annoyed that the specters seemed to break the present-giving interaction at first#living in a haunted house can be interesting but also very frustrating#but as previously stated I am committed to the bit#so unless they move the haunts are staying#I pretty much know how to deal with them now so#not a HUGE deal#queued
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#Why can’t he just like me#The worst is that I keep imagining all these fun things we could do together#But we need to be official first#Or he needs to be ok hanging out as just friends and I think he feels weird about it#Because if we hang out as just friends everyone still naturally assumes we’re dating#Guys I really like him#But I doubt he likes me bacj#He’s cute and has nice hair and reads his Bible and is funny in a really stupid but endearing way#He reads. He reads so much#He’s hungry for God#He’s maybe the first guy I’ve ever found that matched what I wanted and he doesn’t like me back 💔😭
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kind of thinking i should start a horror sideblog....... but idk what i’d reblog there even besides gifsets, and MAYBE some film analysis
#wet fart.txt#idk i dont usually like reblogging shit straight from searched tags#more often what i do is follow people then reblog a bunch of their stuff#but if it'd just be gifsets of movies i just saw that i recommend then it'd be better to just crawl through tags i think??#i doubt people are interested BUT if you are lmk and i may go through the effort of putting a nice theme together tonight#im not good at articulating what i like and dont like about movies but i might post short reviews too idk#ik thats why everyone got really into letterboxed but idgaf about making more accounts on websites that only serve one purpose#if im writing down my thoughts i'd rather have em somewhere i can easily archive them#because it'd be more for myself and maybe 2 of my friends than randos on the internet :p
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i don’t know how to properly phrase this, but i think radical kindness is a legitimate lifesaver
#still thinking about that post about social anxiety and the cafe#like idk#i believe the world is kind because i am kind#and i don't want to think so ill of other people that i assume i am the Only kind person#time and time again i'm shown that beyond a shadow of doubt most people strive to be kind too#so if i embody some trait someone else must too#yes there are a lot of people who are assholes#but there are a hell of a lot more who are kind#we as a species were not founded on cruelty#we got here because we were cooperative and compassionate#and falling back on that does wonders for my anxiety#why should i assume someone i'm talking to will think poorly of me when i have no reason to think the same of them?#why do i assume i'm so different from the rest of society that i am the only one with kind impulses and everyone else is out to hurt me?#and the truth is that i'm not. i am actually just like everyone else#trying their best. being as nice as i can be#it's a good way to remind myself that my anxiety#while trying to protect me the best it can. is ultimately irrational#people are kind. people are so kind. i just have to let them be kind
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Went to a local pride event in 707 (Mystic Messenger) cosplay and danced with an Aizawa cosplayer to bagpipes to drown out the three(?) protesters
#doing my part 🫡#no but seriously this was so fun#I live in Appalachia so there’s always a little worry#but actually everyone is super nice and I always forget that because I’m online#I got video if anyone doubts me btw
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